Fairy Tale Dreams

I definitely need to get my scanner up and running. Taking photos of my cuties doesn't produce the best image but you get the idea.  I will draw, draw and re-draw this image until I get it juuuust right. Right now the apple blossoms look funny and the baby a bit flat. Oh well! I do like the subject matter.  When I feel like I have the image the way I like it, my obsession with that subject is done and on to the next!  A graphic artist aquaintance told me I should find a niche and stick to it; for example to make my art marketable, I might make my specialty little tea cups or pastries or somesuch. I guess I haven't found what strikes my fancy. I would probably get MUCH better if I stuck to one image or category of images.

I've read that Van Gogh painted 102 versions of his Sunflowers.

Last night I woke up dreaming of a sparrows nest with four perfect eggs in it. My brain seemed to be studying the light, looking at the nest up close, from far away, this way and that. I was marvelling at the four tiny perfect eggs.

I love dreams like that! I have them often. They used to be stressful dreams of work related problems when I worked in Social Services. Those dreams were anxiety provoking, prompted a bout of insomnia that would last for days and often ended with a migraine. The dreams I have now feel the same only in the sense that my brain is working on a "problem" but they fill me with happiness. They are like a gift that wakes me up to notice it and feel like fairy tales; so colorful, sparkly and welcoming. I can snuggle right back into sleep with my brain working on detail, shading, or a new technique to try so easily.  The dream last night was not so much about technique but subject matter.  Beautiful, perfect little eggs in a perfect little nest. 

I feel better than I have in years! I think my brain is thanking me for not abusing it anymore with left brain tasks and work that never suited me.  I adored the people I worked for so many years to help but never flourished with the deadlines, To Do lists, micro-managing supervisors, the musts, shoulds and have to's.

I am SO much happier now.